二月二十二 灰色

二月二十二 灰色。需要給自己一些顏色瞧瞧。最近又開始懶散，壓力性失眠，眼神恍惚，意識不清。天阿！這博士生光環背後的負擔可真不輕。大多數的壓力是來自於自己。對自己的信任不夠，導致不敢對自己承諾。拖拖拉拉的結果，使得進度一延再延。唉！太多藉口，太少勇氣。就是昨天書上說的主要症候群，我是時間管理文章所說的病人。
每每看到學校中稱著盲人柺杖的學生，心中的感覺只有複雜可以形容。是由衷的欽佩這樣的向學精神，也是對自己懶散的鄙夷，這樣交織出來的複雜。多一點勇氣，少一點藉口，應該是這樣的結論。

TOUGH UP! MR. N

GAMBADAE MR. N.
Be a tough guy like a bull. You feel you can do it, and we all know you can do it. Be a headstrong guy like yourself. Like a silly commercial said " TRUST ME, YOU CAN DO IT!" GAMBALO!

五指，IBM以及心情

這可不是我的五根手指頭壓，這是每天服務我，讓我趴趴走的腳指頭哩。今天終於用最新的科技來犒賞他們啦。光觸媒五指襪！日本最新科技歐！高級哩！
今天晚上洗完澡，看了丟在一旁的生日禮物，翻出這個像手套一樣的東西，怪怪！傳說中的五指襪。仔仔細細的把可辨識的漢字讀了一遍，旁邊精彩的殺菌漫畫，附加一張頗科學的細菌量圖表。恩！光觸媒，應該是這襪子經過陽光的照射之後，會引發觸媒反應而將細菌殺死。酷！日本人很認真，也愛作實驗，連這樣的小小一張襪子說明也有科學圖表為證。今天的心情很適合穿五指襪，慢慢感覺每一根腳指頭，有腳踏實地的感覺。慢慢的把論文寫完，也需要腳踏實地的心情。我的五指襪，IBM，論文在夜裡陪著我。

INCUBATE AN IDEA

http://www.nature.com/news/2006/060213/full/060213-9.html
I got this interesting article this morning, a science article about our unconscious brain. The authors claimed that we tend to make a better decision if we go with our gut! This is so true to me. The more I calculate, the worse it truns out. I guess the more I mulled over one thing, the more I see the detail and lost the BIG PICTURE at the same time(as the article mentioned). I have a habit that I call it "incubate a idea". Everytime I have a new idea or a difficulty, I sit them aside. Think of them once a while, a little bit, not too much. I "incubate" them. It might be take a few days or a few weeks and the resolution pop out without my expectation. Always when I was taking a shower. I guess the higher water temperture help hatching the egg "EUKARI".

老鼠小兵

我的老鼠小兵們。排列整齊蓄勢待發。等著大戰胡桃鉗王子。一直很喜歡柴可夫斯基的胡桃鉗組曲。但是懶惰的古典音樂迷如我，永遠都記不清楚哪一個版本比較熱門，哪一個樂團非去聽不可。直到人家幫我買好票了才興匆匆的開始查閱這一切相關的資訊。在劇場裡驚呼，沸騰。2003年的耶誕節，Lynn帶著我這個剛到美國的拖油瓶回辛辛那提家中。一如往例的Lynn媽已經幫大家買好票了。柴可夫斯基的胡桃鉗，辛辛那提管弦樂團。英勇的胡桃鉗王子在台上大戰老鼠王，還有可愛的小朋友在夢境中穿梭。這歌劇真的沒有像想像中的一般嚴肅與沈悶。講這麼多，跟我的照片一點都不搭嘎。我最近在著迷這些老鼠小兵們，照片中的小老鼠可是要拿來大戰聲名狼籍的ALABAMA BASS的。見下集分曉。

SOAR

Feb.14th, Valentine's day. Don't let the commercials fool you. Also, don't let the busy work blind your mind. If you have someone to say "Happy Valentine's Day" that's great! If you don't, it's OK. RECYCLE your feeling. The USPS demonstrated how the process will make us SOAR!

是友情讓世界變寬廣。

我的朋友裡面，有出身商業鉅子之家的富豪，有每天為學校清潔貢獻己力的藍領，也有像我一般出門在外靠老師供養的遊子。很奇妙的，他們不同的身份竟然跟我維持著同樣的一層關係，友情。這樣的友情維繫可以是很稀薄的。像高山上的清風，偶而飄來一陣圓柏松脂的香味。也可以像是當天煮的牛肉咖哩一般濃郁，化著蕃茄與蘿蔔的紅泡泡。我是這樣珍惜著這樣的友情，無厘頭式的對話，荒誕的想法，以及怪異的行為。每每朋友的遠行總是有幾分的的不捨。我想那種感覺就像是你喜歡的廣播頻道有一天突然停播了。

A Party

Auburn, a college town, nothing special but everything just fit well. Students like to have party, gathering together and drink beers of course. Party is not a big deal as you would imagine in the big city like crazy Taipei night. Party here are based on three elements. BEERS, DRINKING BEERS and Talk. A little bit dispointed when I first realized this is the way "the party" goes, especially I knew nobody when I just got here, also, I am not a big fan of BEERS. You got to forgive me here, we Asians just don't have that much enzyme to digest these liquid. However, after couple semesters, I started to enjoy the party, the friendship, the gussips, the BEERS for sure. I like beers, announced to the public loud :P. This picture were taken from the last big party in my old house. Me and Brian cook tons of food and people brought lots of beers. It was a sweet party. And Lynn and Mike (this picture) were the mentors of my party life : )

Mr. Children

Mr. Children is a band, a man, a kid, a Peter Pan, a attitude, a philosophy, a life style, a way we call ourself! Mr. Children, Miss Children...They like to hang out togeter, they have their smooth style when they talk. I like it, so I listen carefully, tilt my head and use a kind of slow attitude.
I like to talk to kids, listen to them, understand their problem, help them and help myself. Remind those old memories I had,funny or serious, refresh those kid attitude I ever had- Naive and Pure. I like to go back to revisit them, double check I am still in that shape, gaining power and confidenece to move on. That's why I become a Mr. Children, then turn into Or-Gi-San Children soon, very soon : )

你又跑出去釣魚了？

是的！ 上禮拜六又是我們例行的釣友聚會。我喜歡釣魚，從此向全世界宣告。廖大哥愛釣魚，KELLY愛釣魚，國敬愛釣魚，馬口愛釣魚。DENNY, BRUCE AND I LOVE FISH TOO. Large Mouth Bass, Fish On! Denny's rod, Bruce's fly and My fish! What a cooperation! Good man love fishing and Fishermans love friends. So as these mentioned fish bums.

抹茶之味

奧斯卡頒獎的時候。得獎的人總是有一堆謝不完的話。感謝家人的支持，朋友的鼓勵，前輩的提攜...一串串的名字被傳送到世界各地。對百分之九九點九九九的人，這些名字就像土壤中的肥料元素一樣--氮的比例是x%;磷的比例是y。是這樣的摸不著，看不到...但是他們確是成就一棵大樹最重要的元素。這光鮮亮麗的大樹阿。活了32年的大樹阿。要像全世界播送他的感謝。一串串數不盡的肥料方程式。

彥廷，生日快樂。

彥廷，生日快樂歐。隔海傳來爸媽還有弟弟的祝福。心裡是感動幸福的。不知道從哪時候開始，生日的時喉我都會想要跟爸媽說：生日快樂，謝謝你。是學生物的本行知識？還是生為人子的多情？一個人，要這樣的成長到有獨立思考的能力是這樣的不容易。看著自己一路走來的足跡，有著說不出的感激。我是幸福的。

去年的電子紅包，也是福氣。

The Red Envelope means good luck for Chinese people. In the lunar new year(the biggest festival in Chinese society and Taiwanese society), parents or elder people give these red envelope to kids and wish them have a good luck for the coming year. Every kids knows that red envelope is great, because there are money in there usually but not always. Fortunately, my parents always put money in there. Money means satisfied desire. I know that when I were very young, and of course I know the feeling to have new toy.
There was one year, I told my father that I want to use all my red envelope money to buy a pair of binoculars, a really good one. They asked for $700 us dollars. I was sick for that one for a long time. However, my total "trophy" from my new year red envelpoe was $350. I told my father with a deep honest eyes, and said I really want this pair of binoculars. I want to use this pair for my bird research. I want to be a ornithologist. "Would you pay another half price for me?" My father say yes without a blink. I had this pair of binocular for 11 years right now. He is my best friend in the field. Although there is still long way to become a good ornithologist. I carried this good luck binocular with me. No fear on my way to PhD.